I'm so tired of blogging. And sick of bitching about my life to Cassie.
I'm so fucking done biting my tongue with you. Don't piss me off unless you want me to go the fuck off on you. God damn.

Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known.

This is basically going to be getting out everything I feel about everyone, I will probably just say "you" for the really brutal bullshit because it's going to get fucking nasty.

Logan; Yeah, well fuck you too. God damn, I spend two fucking years being in love with you and all I fucking get is pain in return. You treat me like shit and one day you are finally going to fucking realize that that's not okay. You are finally going to love someone other than yourself and I hope they fucking rip you apart. I wish you nothing but pain, hell and everything you inflicted on me. I hope you get every STD known to man and I hope you tiny little cock shrivels and falls off.  I hope you get horrible acne and no one will ever be attracted to you again. No one. NO ONE is ever ever ever going to love you like I do. Because you are the most unlovable person I've ever fucking met. You just keep coming back to fuck with me. All the fucking time. I'm so fucking done with you. I'm fucking done.

Dakota; You fucking wish! You aren't cute at all and you are sketchy as fuck, and now I know why, seriously? Have sex with you in a graveyard? YEAH RIGHT. And I don't give a flying fuck if you block me. It's what the fuck ever to me. You will honestly never mean anything to me but a good fucking laugh. Sorry that you tiny little ego got damaged when I told you that there was someone else and I didn't want to fuck you. This isn't MySpace, take that blocking bullshit back to fourth grade. I wasn't going to cyber stalk you or even IM you, I've never even IMed you first or looked at your page. And honestly, how the fuck did you get my number? I never gave it to you because let's see I DON'T FUCKING LIKE YOU. Kthxbaiiiii.

JP; Seriously? I'm crazy? I'm crazy? Bitch you haven't seen crazy, you are the biggest fucking loser I have ever met. You claim to be so fucking in love with me one minute and then the next I'm crazy and you don't ever want me to text you again, what the fuck do you want? OH and the mall shit, I will never fucking forget THAT. You ask to see me 309402309234234 fucking times and then you just leave me there. I am SO glad I had Cassie there with me, because I honestly think I would have went fucking nuts on your ass. You are soooo lame. What the fuck are happy cloths? You WANT to be so depressed and depressing but when someone really has problems they're "crazy" Up yours. Fuck you. Don't ever ever ever talk to me again.

You; OKAY OKAY. We fucking get it. You're life is so bad, now stop fucking talking about how depressed you are all the fucking time, because it makes everyone around you feel like shit. You just honestly need to get the fuck over your self, and just try to be happy instead of always being like "OH LAWD I'M SO SAD OMG OMG MY LIFE IS HELL." I'm not even going to go any further with this because you will probably start crying and update your stupid little facebook status and then feed off of the attention everyone is going to give you

You && You; You are so beautiful. And such a good person, when you guys put yourself down it makes me feel like fucking shit. You are obviously a fuck of a lotttt prettier than me or else I wouldn't be single for over a year and barely even kissed anyone. You never think about what you say and it just fucking hurts. I don't want to constantly be mad at you guys and I'm sick of wishing I was you. I just need a serious change in scenery and people.

You && You; Why did you leave me. What did I ever do that was so wrong that made you just leave and barely ever talk to me. I tried so hard for your approval but it wasn't ever enough. I needed you more than I ever needed anyone and you just left me. I fucking hate you and will never fucking forgive you as long as I live. Thanks for letting me fend for myself. I hope you need me really bad one day and I'm just going to be gone. With my own fucking life. I want everyone to leave you and then I can tell you that I have problems of my own. I hope you end up just as fucked as me. I hope you want to fucking die just as much as me, someday. And I hope no one even notices.

You are not alone. Love is the movement.

I've decided to start something similar to operation beautiful.
But instead of telling people they are beautiful I want to tell people they aren't alone. No one would have to go through life alone, and no one should have to think that they are.
Starting from now one every person has at least one friend, me. And who ever else joins this.

Fears I have;

Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places
Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure
Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.
Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness.
Cancerophobia or Carcinophobia- Fear of cancer.
Dishabiliophobia- Fear of undressing in front of someone.
Dysmorphophobia- Fear of deformity.




I'm too lazy to look up more.

Lyndsey;

I'm so sorry for everything that came between us. I've said this so many times and I will say it so many more times, I didn't deserve another chance but I am so so so glad you gave me another one. I have so much fun with you and you don't care what people think of you. You take steps with out wondering who's walking behind you and I've always loved that about you. You stay strong with your friends and it hurts me when I see you sad because I know you deserve so much more than that. Thank you for being one of the best people I have ever met.
I love you.

Alyssa;

I miss what we had so much, I miss being your best friend and I wish I could take everything back. You go through a lot but you focus so hard on keeping everyone happy and more importantly keeping you happy, you have no idea how much I admire that about you. You showed me true friendship and even if we grow apart and never talk again I will never ever forget you, although I doubt we won't talk again.
You are a beautiful strong young women and I know you will make something amazing of yourself.
I love you.

Cassie;

I love you so much, girlie.
You always make me happy and you always stay strong for me, I'm always down on how alone I feel but I don't know how I can feel so alone with you. You are the best friend anyone could ask for and you do so so so so much for me. I would be so lost and probably dead without you.
I'm so glad I found a friend in you.
You are gorgeous smart and courageous. I know you are going to make something big of yourself and I hope we'll be friends for ever.
I love you.

Katy don't cry I know you're trying your hardest.

I think I've gone as low as I can go.
I think it might get better.
I've thought that many times though and I haven't been right yet.
Maybe it will get better.
Maybe it really will.

You never did give a damn thing, honey.

I had to blog.
I don't do this anymore.
I've told many people every day is worse than the last.
This year is going good, better than I thought.
I'm not getting harassed or called an emo.
I wish I was like Alyssa. I wish I could see the good in things.
All I can see is the past.
All I can see is possible hurt.
I'm not living anymore.
I want to live again.

I will not break the way you did you fell so hard.

When I was little, my aunts would by me stuff just because my cousins mom said she couldn't have it.
They favored me. They actually loved me.
Now they don't even tell me happy birthday.
When I was little, I smiled and I was happy.
I was confident. I was carefree.
Now I have low self asteem and think that if anyone laughs around me that they must being making a joke about me. Anyone that ever tells me they love me or even like me has to be joking.
When I was little, I liked girl scouts and wanted to be Hilary Duff.
I wanted to be like Lizzie McGuire
With true friends and blonde hair
I didn't care about popularity.
Now I can't even look at myself I hate me.
When I was little I blamed my imaginary boyfriend, Ken for all the things did wrong.
I didn't care if I had done something wrong. It wasn't that bad.
Now I blame myself for any bad thing that has ever happened to anyone.
When I was little I didn't want to kill myself and I was actually afraid of death.
I just want to die, now.

♥

Me

>=D

I SHALL ROB YOU OF YOUR BIRGINITY'

4:44pmCassieMonsta

D:

NOOOOOOO.

4:44pmMe

>:D

robs you of your birginity

4:44pmCassieMonsta

sobs

4:45pmMe

SHUT UP

D=<

puts a rag in your mouth

continues to rob your birginity

'Nuf said

New school. New me. New style.

I'm seriously sick of all the emo styles.
I hate pink skinnies and all that.
I probably never wear them
I hate my hair.
It's stupid.
Well bai

MINE TOO

Lolol.

(:

I love talking to Cassie && Lyndsey xD

I want to be a mime for halloween. :D

Yes..

Yesss.

YESSS

I wanna go swimming.

Those days are gone forever, I should just let them go.

I'm not that girl anymore.

Cassaundra Marie Matiska

Thank you.
I was beginning to lose myself.
But I found me.
You always listen to me and never let me get out of line.
You are the truest friend I have ever met and I'm so glad I found you.
I can face the world without fear because I know you will always be there for me.
Thank you

People killing, people dying.

Why can't I get a little sad and show actual emotion with out being too emotional?

Why can't we love anymore.

We've gotten lazy and selfish.

Everyday I am on LGMH and GMH.

Waiting for a miracle.

My friends give me hope.

They show love and don't judge me.

They are some of the best people I have ever met and I'm sorry if that's not okay with you.

You say they are "Emo's"

Why labels?

Why are we all subject to your judgment, you aren't better than anyone.

Just call them people.

People that are perfectly imperfect.

People that care for other people, not just what they can get out of it.

Why can't we just put aside our petty judgments and see what's underneath.

Why can't we break through the outer shell and rough exterior and just accept people.

Why do we hate people we don't even know.

Cassie was right.

Except, I think blind people are the only ones that can really see.

We are all blinded by images of what we think people should be.

And they see us.

Why can't we see us?

Why are we blind?

Lololol. The fucking people you meet on MySpace! >=| Srsly.

bi-polor.It sucks that I'm sad almost all the time.I try to make myself happy,but it is hard.It sucks when you start out your day really sad,but in other day I start out really happy.Idk whats wrong with me.Anywho Im really sweet(a sweetheart).I care for people,sometimes more than I do myself.My favorite color is green.I enjoy listening to rock,pop,techno,rap,r&b,screamo,and thats it no opera or country for me.If you wanna know me send me a comment or a message.Oh yah one more thing I hate drama and liars and two faced people.Oh and a final thing watch what you say,cus my bi-polor.Thanks . If I had one wish is that it take away my depressin and bi-polor,they suck

So... you said you're... happy? >_>

I can tell you my love for you will still be strong after the boys of summer have gone.

I love that song.
School soon.
....
I'm starting high school in two weeks.
God help me.

Seriously?! Gtfo.

K, so. I really truly seriously fucking hate you.

Guess what?! My middle name IS MARIE ANTOINETTE.

I didn't add shit to it. THANK YOU VERY MUCH.

Guess what I DO know what the fuck anemia is.

Just because your mom is a physch nurse doesn't mean you know everything about everything.

I'm sick of you. Just because you were my friend once really doesn't mean anything.

I tried to be nice. And to be your friend. But I really just can't do it anymore.

Good-bye.

Holding on. The days drag on.

I'd rather skinny dip than chunky dunk. 

Thinspiration.

It'll be easy.

I only want to see underneath the purple rain

It's almost high school. && at the rate I'm going they are going to eat me alive.
I can't use my disorder as an excuse. Just because I have a mood disorder does not mean I can act like this towards people. I'm not blaming her and I'm done blaming him. I have had a damn good life. With beautiful friends. Inside and out. I've known more happiness than some people, more than a lot of people actually. If I keep looking at the past I will never see the future. It's over for a reason, and this is where I'm at now. I'm making a new blog, and getting rid of all my old blogs. They mean nothing now. I'm going to try my damnedest to be nice. If I'm just nicer and clear my head I'll be happier, it makes perfect sense. If you are an asshole to people it's not because you are miserable, it makes you miserable. It's a nasty habit and makes you wonder five minutes later why you are such a fucking bitch. I'm done with it, I'm done with pushing people out of my life. Fuck laughter, you are your best medicine.  I'm done with this eating disorder shit. I'm done cutting and I am done judging. I love everyone. No matter how they've treated me. No matter how I've treated them. No matter what.

If you really knew me (I've made it longer)

If you really knew me you would know that my dog is the only one who truly loves me.


If you really knew me, you would know I only have one friend that I haven't either lost faith in or completely fucked it up.

If you really knew me, you would know that everyday I hate myself more and more.

If you really knew me, you would know I pass myself off as a prep to impress someone who I hate.

If you really knew me, you would know that I force myself to act like a person I never have been and never will be in front of the person I call my best friend, just so he'll like me, just so I'm not alone.

If you really knew me, you would know that I blame myself for my father leaving the first time.

If you really knew me you would know that I think about suicide every single day.

If you really knew me, you would know that almost everyone hates me, and thinks I'm an awful person.

If you really knew me, you would know that I hurt myself a lot over someone who broke up with me a year ago.

If you really knew me, you would know I've never felt so lonely in my life.

If you really knew me, you would know that I fell in love with my best friend and then to impress him started a fight with some the best people I have ever met.

If you really knew me you would know that I got the worst out of both of my parents and have serious problems.

If you really knew me you would know that in the fall I am starting high school all alone.


If you really knew me you would know that I'm afraid of letting people go because I know they'll be much better without me.


If you really knew me, you would know that I want desperately to go back to last summer, and live the fall, winter, spring and beginning of this summer over.


If you really knew me, you would know that I freak out when I don't take my pills because I can't stand to be around myself for more than twelve hours out of the day.


If you really knew me, you would know that even though I try so hard to be, I'm never happy for one whole day, even if everything goes perfect. I still find flaws, if you really knew me you would know I get that from my mother, and she's the one who gives me the most shit for it.


If you really knew me you would know, that I used to hate my dad for leaving, and for just not being there for me. But now I realize he's the only one who can really understand me. Because he understands himself and my mother.


If you really knew me, you would know that I listen to me && my ex best friends song every day, Time After Time -Cyndi Lauper.


If you really knew me you would know that I miss you. A lot. 

I plead insanity.

&& you'd speak of your loved ones, as I clumsily strummed my guitar.

Well excuse me, guess I'm mistaking you for someone else. Somebody who gave a damn. Somebody more like myself.

I gave up everything for you. Don't fucking do this to me again.

When I hear somebody sigh, "Life is hard," I am always tempted to ask, "Compared to what?" Sydney J. Harris-

Monday, June the twenty-first.
3:09 pm.
I woke up late.
I hung out with my SamBam yesterday :]]
And his friend Marious.
Oh my God.
He called himself Jared Smith O_O_O_O
That's the guy from Sex in The City!
Lawlllawllawllawll.
Woow.
Anyway...
Samuel kept trying to pick me up,
why? I have noo idea.
Well, I gotta go. =|
Fucking fucking fuck.

Blue lips blue veins blue the color of our planet from far far away

I'm at the lake, and I'm thinking. Why can't I stand alone but A can?
Is it because A is just that much stronger than I?
I think A is loney, and therefor. I'm going to start a trend. A can't stand alone.
Ever.


"And I was the one who thought I was strong but you proved me wrong and now I'm singing along to every word on the radio I don't want to go, come on baby tell me something I wanna know"

Haaa.

Dyeing my hair brown.
:D
I'm going to Cassie's.
I love herrr.
I got the most beautiful snow globe from Ms. Vandenburgh yesterday.
I shall miss Ms. Vandenburgh.
D:
Buttt.
I'm happy I'm graduating.
WITH BROWN HAIR.

Alyssa:

This is a well needed blog, huh? We have fought non stop, and now it's fine. I was just mad that you had Sam, and I lost him because I thought it was wrong.It's stupid to think that way and I should really change my ways, I have a lot of problems, and you only try to help with them, I know I've treated you like crap and I want to be your best friend again, this is crazy, I want to sit in my living room watching lame movies and eating pancakes again, and I want to go streaking at the lake and the bitter cold of November. I want to dance and run on the roof of  the Clark Lake Beach And Boat Club apartment. I want things to go back how they were. I don't want to turn my back on what has always been there for me. It's stupid, and I have no idea what I was thinking. I love you, and miss you

Goals For Summer

-Read Hamlet
-Blog Hamlet
-Have a party at the lake, and invite all my friends.
-Write more of my story.
-Take a lot of pictures
-Get skinny(Shut up, shut up SHUT UP)
-Peirce my ear again, all the way around.
-Hang out with Alyssa
-Go running with Lexie
-See my bruder Sam Bam.
-Eat some Taco Bell
-Don't look like an idiot during summer school.
-Paint.
-Read some books
-Buy some more chap stick
-Get a job
-Get 50 dollars worth of gummy bears and other assorted gummy goods.

More later. :D

I'm trying not to be pissed at one of my close friends. :/ whatever time for the the ol' fml.com

Today, I went to use my dad's computer for a moment to check my e-mail while visiting him. He'd forgotten that he'd left his Facebook open with dirty messages back and forth with my mum. They've been divorced for over a decade, and he's remarried since. FML

Today, while having sex, my girlfriend answered a phone call from her mom. She proceeded to have a short conversation while I was still inside her. FML

Today, my boyfriend and I took a really nice shower together. When we were done, he lied down on the bed and asked me to dress him as if he were a baby. Whenever I'd ask for help, he'd remind me that he was a baby and therefore could not help me put on his clothes for him. FML

Today, I attempted to flirt with my next door neighbor/crush by changing with the bedroom curtains open. When I was completely naked, I got a call from him asking me to close the blinds because I was scaring not only him but his little sister. FML

Today, I found out that while I was away at camp two months ago my boyfriend of nine months slept with two of my close friends. The only thing he said when I confronted him was "Well, I don't care what you think about me.Just please don't get mad at your friends, I care about them a lot." Thanks. FML

Today, I was sitting in a slightly obscured field next to a lake with my boyfriend. We started having sex, thinking the trees would give us some cover. But after a few minutes we heard cheering, so we stopped and looked towards the lake to see a group of about fifteen people watching us and egging us on. FML

Today, my brother told me he would have sex with me if we weren't related. Now we have to have a serious conversation about what is and isn't appropriate in a brother-sister relationship. FML

Today, my girlfriend found my secret panty stash. Now she thinks I'm cheating on her with another girl, but I'm not. They're mine. FML

Shut up Toby Keith, Everbody knows you Love America

Okay kittens, today's topic is America. I will start with the new health care law and work my way to war.


Obama's(It's not just Obama's, he passed it but come on did he make it up by himself?) The new health care covers abortions. And people are mad, to say in the least. Some people are very against it, and I know you don't want to pay for it. Me being Pro Choice, I would rather pay for the five hundred dollar abortion than pay for the child to get adopted out or be beat by it's mother and father. If the person is willing to abort the child, it means they don't want it. If they don't want it and don't adopt it out, they aren't going to be nice to the child and probably neglect and/or beat it. I am NOT going to let the child be abused. That is whack, and although the fetus can feel pain, I would rather it quickly die than be the child called It for God's sake.

Some people are so against abortion they don't think it through, if you don't like them don't get one. But it's better than the child being abused and neglected. I don't like us having to pay for it either, but if they can't afford it and they can't afford the child chances are, if they are smart they will put it up for adoption. Now, regardless of what you might think. A lot of the people that can afford adoptions, are getting them from other country's and they put the children in foster care. WE PAY FOR THAT BY THE WAY. Hey Brad and Angelina, why don't you get you heads out of you asses, and help out our country?! Get out of Haiti or where ever that damn earth quake was and help out the USA. We could really use the extra help if you haven't noticed. They're called natural disasters because they are natural. They survive they're fine. You left Louisiana sore and broken, but you stay with Haiti and help them? That's crazy.

Which brings me to war, um. Why isn't almost every troop home? Why are we still fighting this war and what the hell is the war about? Why did they attack the towers? Why can't we all live as one on the same planet why are we always hating and never helping? No one can come up with an answer to satisfy me I assure you this. It isn't fair and I know life isn't fair but we don't need war. It's not what life's about. Call me old fashioned, call me a hippie. Call me a dreamer, call me what ever you want but it is simply pointless. We need our troops home, helping us. HELP US. We need less ignorant people, the damn Mexicans need to get out of here and stop feeding off our welfare.

Which brings me to the ignorant people who say stuff like 'I hate government but I'm going to live off state and say stupid stuff' blah blah blah. I can't take it anymore. This chaos is eating my brain. Obama better make the change, because something needs to. Someone needs to help, I want to help I truly do. I want to be in a purposeful job, make a change in this life. I want to help people and children. If everyone cared about others instead of cable T.V and Tivo, we wouldn't have people living on streets wondering where their next meal was coming from. Get a job and keep a job and again, get the money sucking Mexicans out of our country and back to Mexico.





"I'm on a highway to hell, all my friends are gonna be there too"

I'm going to start blogging a lot more

So, here it is.
Wednesday, April Fourteenth.
10:00.

1st hour:; P:E. Lei lani likes my puppy chow, who knew!

 Caught up on my homework:D

2nd hour:; Tech. Reeshemah wants to be part of the Navy. I explain what it was as "Under water" Which, is true. Just not all of it. And everyone laughed when the teacher said "Well, yeah but not always" What is so funny about that? Losers.

3rd hour:; English. So. Boring. We're working on our project. Which I am much more prepared than the rest of the class. They don't even know which college they want to go to. I am going to MSU or Hell one.

I really want to go to MSU if you can't tell.

4th hour:; I am usually blogging or something. I was listening to music relaxing and researching Skid Row for General Music and stuff for my project. Another lame group activity in history. Fail.

5th hour:; I have lunch now. Ms. Vandenburgh heated my lunch :D and Destiny annoying me with her hideous hair. I hope she doesn't think that shit is cut. It's a fucking mess. Split ends, and a nasty colour that isn't even. Lyndsey would have a fucking fit. Haa.(Love you ninja tummy)

6th hour Math:; Hmm boring I'm in Geometry now. Fabulous. He keeps switching my group in math. I have no idea what the fuck I am learning one minute to the next. Jesus Christ!

Then I left school for my Therapist.

Great she is annoying and weird.

I'm not sure I will like her much.

Whatever.

Came home. Boreddd ate some food,

talking to Devin now.

I still really like him. Haa.

He's hawt.

Anyway. I'm gonna go.

Kbye.

JP(:

Okay...
I will start this off by saying I love you moree.
and, that you are the bestestestest friend evarr.
I am texting you right now,
Because your the shit.
You have been my friend for almost two years,
and I have liked you the whole timee.
We haven't ever met,
Which is weird because I could be a creepy old man :D
There isn't much to say other than. you are amazing don't ever sell yourself short and that I love you more. (:

I know you want meh you know I want you.

Yessssssssss,

It just means something LMFAO

Tulip Time

Bahaha Ms. Vandenburgh is ranting.
I'm writing a persuasive essay
Hahahaha,
I just remembered.
'Kay, so one time. I was like talking to Kavaciae and like he was all "I'm mexican, essay" Lmfao what?
And THEN my sister boyfriend(at the time wtfuckarethey?) walked into my house and my dad was all (true story) "HEY ESSAY!" Ahahaha.
Who does that?
Anyway, stay tuned for the next two blogs today.

Stay Classy,
Emily.

Om nom nom.

Three songs that mean a lot to me:
WHOA!
Pause the blog.
This one is about nosey people.
Nosey people seriously annoy the **** out of me!
Seriously?!
'Kay, so this creepy ass guy was like at my house.
And he kept staring at me. like O.O
I was like >.>
Wtff.
Please.
PLEASE.
Get a life.
And like, he was sitting next to me and touched my face.
I wonder if he knows I think he's a total loser and wish death upon him, and his loser friends.
And he was like, sitting next to me, and I was reading Lyndsey blog and LMFAO and then he's reads the screen and is all "What's so funny"
I was like 0.o
"Nothing....?"
Like, and then, his dads creepy friend was reading my IMs behind me.
Jesus H. Christ.
I am getting seriously mad right now.
What a bunch of dumb fucks.

"It's gonna hurt but it heals too"

Okay, so awhile back my therepist suggested I write a letter to myself only focusing on good things, because since I was seven years old I have only been focusing on the bad.
So here we go.
Time for letter to me.
Dear self,
I love how your hair always stays in place.
And I love your friends.
I love how you can go into a conversation self rightous and bitchy and come out caring for your friend who got his or her feelings slightly hurt.
I love how when you were little you liked to take ballet, and catch grass hoppers in the same night.
I love the influence you have on people.
And the way you smile with your eyes.
I love how you can listen to deathcore, and can recanize Beethoven's Moonlight Sonata in the first note.
And most of all, I love how you know the difference between a monkey wrench, and a monkey's ass. ;D

Peaceful.

Hmmm.
I am doing a report and listening to Moonlight Sonata.
Mmm<3
I do love Beethoven.
Well, Bai.

Pull The Trigger,
Emily

Alyssa.

You are, one of a kind.
And that's sad, because more people should be like you.
Your nice, caring, uderstanding, and all around amazing, your funny, smart and really pretty.
I am so happy to call you my best friend, I always run to you, and can trust you with everything.
I am glad you found the one for you, and glad your in my life,
I hope to keep you as a close friend forever.
Let's always stay close.
Because without it,
It seems like my world would get bland and hazy.
You pumped the life into me through an IV, and I am always here for you.
We have endless fun times together, and hiliarious inside jokes.
I can relate to you in so many ways, and you are not afraid to stand up for what you beleive in,
Even if it means standing alone, but you will never be alone with me by your side.
I love you Sea Foam.

Movieee.

Ohmigod.
Please,
please please watch the movie Lost and Delerious.
It's the best love story everrrr.
It has a twist.
And it's not just girl and boy.
People need to realize love is for everyone. Everyone
It's not just girl and boy.
Watch ittt.

2/16/2010.

It's history time.
Hanging out with Selena and Noah.
Doing a guided reading.
Hey, I need more readers.
Tell your friends I'm cool and shit.
I was talking to I'mand,
Aparently Patricia and Kavaciae are dating.
He'll date anyone and she's desperate
I'm filing my nails.
I have to go.

Pull The Trigger,
Emily.

I'm not sure if THEY know what the hell they're talking about,.

Is this the real life?
Is this just fantasy?
Caught in a landslide,
No escape from reality
Open your eyes, Look up to the skies and see,
I'm just a poor boy, I need no sympathy,
Because I'm easy come, easy go, Little high, little low,
Any way the wind blows doesn't really matter to me, to me
Mama I just killed a man,
Put a gun against his head, pulled my trigger, now he's dead
Mama, life had just begun,
But now I've gone and thrown it all away
Mama, ooh, Didn't mean to make you cry,
If I'm not back again this time tomorrow,
Carry on, carry on as if nothing really matters
Too late, my time has come,
Sends shivers down my spine, body's aching all the time
Goodbye, ev'rybody, I've got to go,
Gotta leave you all behind and face the truth
Mama, ooh, I don't want to die,
I sometimes wish I'd never been born at all
I see a little silhouetto of a man,
Scaramouche, Scaramouche, will you do the Fandango
Thunderbolt and lightning, very, very fright'ning me
(Galileo) Galileo (Galileo) Galileo, Galileo figaro
Magnifico I'm just a poor boy and nobody loves me
He's just a poor boy from a poor family,
Spare him his life from this monstrosity
Easy come, easy go, will you let me go
Bismillah! No, we will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go
(Let him go!) Bismillah! We will not let you go
(Let me go) Will not let you go
(Let me go) Will not let you go (Let me go) Ah
No, no, no, no, no, no, no
(Oh mama mia, mama mia) Mama mia, let me go
Beelzebub has a devil put aside for me, for me, for me
So you think you can stone me and spit in my eye
So you think you can love me and leave me to die
Oh, baby, can't do this to me, baby,
Just gotta get out, just gotta get right outta here
Nothing really matters, Anyone can see,
Nothing really matters,
Nothing really matters to me
Any way the wind blows