I'm so tired of blogging. And sick of bitching about my life to Cassie.
I'm so fucking done biting my tongue with you. Don't piss me off unless you want me to go the fuck off on you. God damn.

Stupid girl, I should have known, I should have known.

This is basically going to be getting out everything I feel about everyone, I will probably just say "you" for the really brutal bullshit because it's going to get fucking nasty.

Logan; Yeah, well fuck you too. God damn, I spend two fucking years being in love with you and all I fucking get is pain in return. You treat me like shit and one day you are finally going to fucking realize that that's not okay. You are finally going to love someone other than yourself and I hope they fucking rip you apart. I wish you nothing but pain, hell and everything you inflicted on me. I hope you get every STD known to man and I hope you tiny little cock shrivels and falls off.  I hope you get horrible acne and no one will ever be attracted to you again. No one. NO ONE is ever ever ever going to love you like I do. Because you are the most unlovable person I've ever fucking met. You just keep coming back to fuck with me. All the fucking time. I'm so fucking done with you. I'm fucking done.

Dakota; You fucking wish! You aren't cute at all and you are sketchy as fuck, and now I know why, seriously? Have sex with you in a graveyard? YEAH RIGHT. And I don't give a flying fuck if you block me. It's what the fuck ever to me. You will honestly never mean anything to me but a good fucking laugh. Sorry that you tiny little ego got damaged when I told you that there was someone else and I didn't want to fuck you. This isn't MySpace, take that blocking bullshit back to fourth grade. I wasn't going to cyber stalk you or even IM you, I've never even IMed you first or looked at your page. And honestly, how the fuck did you get my number? I never gave it to you because let's see I DON'T FUCKING LIKE YOU. Kthxbaiiiii.

JP; Seriously? I'm crazy? I'm crazy? Bitch you haven't seen crazy, you are the biggest fucking loser I have ever met. You claim to be so fucking in love with me one minute and then the next I'm crazy and you don't ever want me to text you again, what the fuck do you want? OH and the mall shit, I will never fucking forget THAT. You ask to see me 309402309234234 fucking times and then you just leave me there. I am SO glad I had Cassie there with me, because I honestly think I would have went fucking nuts on your ass. You are soooo lame. What the fuck are happy cloths? You WANT to be so depressed and depressing but when someone really has problems they're "crazy" Up yours. Fuck you. Don't ever ever ever talk to me again.

You; OKAY OKAY. We fucking get it. You're life is so bad, now stop fucking talking about how depressed you are all the fucking time, because it makes everyone around you feel like shit. You just honestly need to get the fuck over your self, and just try to be happy instead of always being like "OH LAWD I'M SO SAD OMG OMG MY LIFE IS HELL." I'm not even going to go any further with this because you will probably start crying and update your stupid little facebook status and then feed off of the attention everyone is going to give you

You && You; You are so beautiful. And such a good person, when you guys put yourself down it makes me feel like fucking shit. You are obviously a fuck of a lotttt prettier than me or else I wouldn't be single for over a year and barely even kissed anyone. You never think about what you say and it just fucking hurts. I don't want to constantly be mad at you guys and I'm sick of wishing I was you. I just need a serious change in scenery and people.

You && You; Why did you leave me. What did I ever do that was so wrong that made you just leave and barely ever talk to me. I tried so hard for your approval but it wasn't ever enough. I needed you more than I ever needed anyone and you just left me. I fucking hate you and will never fucking forgive you as long as I live. Thanks for letting me fend for myself. I hope you need me really bad one day and I'm just going to be gone. With my own fucking life. I want everyone to leave you and then I can tell you that I have problems of my own. I hope you end up just as fucked as me. I hope you want to fucking die just as much as me, someday. And I hope no one even notices.

You are not alone. Love is the movement.

I've decided to start something similar to operation beautiful.
But instead of telling people they are beautiful I want to tell people they aren't alone. No one would have to go through life alone, and no one should have to think that they are.
Starting from now one every person has at least one friend, me. And who ever else joins this.

Fears I have;

Achluophobia- Fear of darkness
Aeroacrophobia- Fear of open high places
Agateophobia- Fear of insanity.
Agoraphobia- Fear of open spaces or of being in crowded, public places like markets. Fear of leaving a safe place
Agraphobia- Fear of sexual abuse.
Anuptaphobia- Fear of staying single.
Apotemnophobia- Fear of persons with amputations.
Atychiphobia- Fear of failure
Automatonophobia- Fear of ventriloquist's dummies, animatronic creatures, wax statues - anything that falsly represents a sentient being.
Cacophobia- Fear of ugliness.
Cancerophobia or Carcinophobia- Fear of cancer.
Dishabiliophobia- Fear of undressing in front of someone.
Dysmorphophobia- Fear of deformity.




I'm too lazy to look up more.

Lyndsey;

I'm so sorry for everything that came between us. I've said this so many times and I will say it so many more times, I didn't deserve another chance but I am so so so glad you gave me another one. I have so much fun with you and you don't care what people think of you. You take steps with out wondering who's walking behind you and I've always loved that about you. You stay strong with your friends and it hurts me when I see you sad because I know you deserve so much more than that. Thank you for being one of the best people I have ever met.
I love you.

Alyssa;

I miss what we had so much, I miss being your best friend and I wish I could take everything back. You go through a lot but you focus so hard on keeping everyone happy and more importantly keeping you happy, you have no idea how much I admire that about you. You showed me true friendship and even if we grow apart and never talk again I will never ever forget you, although I doubt we won't talk again.
You are a beautiful strong young women and I know you will make something amazing of yourself.
I love you.

Cassie;

I love you so much, girlie.
You always make me happy and you always stay strong for me, I'm always down on how alone I feel but I don't know how I can feel so alone with you. You are the best friend anyone could ask for and you do so so so so much for me. I would be so lost and probably dead without you.
I'm so glad I found a friend in you.
You are gorgeous smart and courageous. I know you are going to make something big of yourself and I hope we'll be friends for ever.
I love you.